ok.. so i haven't posted on here in a really long time.... highly overdue i know. i have other blogs, so i apologize.

this year has been crazy. it's been a tumultuous ride. i've had really really high moments, and some pretty low moments. but overall, 2007 has been a pretty kick ass year!

we had quite a scare with my mom this year. she had a lot of health problems and had to have surgery. luckily though, everything went really well, and she's doing fantastic. she and i have grown so much closer this year, and i feel so incredibly blessed to call her my mom and my friend. i'm really happy to have her in my life. :)

i've gotten to visit my sister tegon and her boys a whole lot this year which makes me really really happy!!!! squee!!! i got to go up there for easter and to celebrate her 30th birthday and mason man's 1st birthday! yay!!! it was very interesting watching the kids hunt easter eggs in their winter coats b/c it was so fraggin cold in indiana!!! so much for getting to wear cute easter outfits when it was practically snowing! i also got to go see her and we got to go to our first concert together since new kids on the block! how fraggin cool is that! we had an absolute blast!!!! we must must must do this again! we had such a good time! though she was completely embarassed by my rawkin out to the smashing pumpkins! i can't help it! they're my favorite band in the entire world! i love my billy corgan! and i recently got to see her again for thanksgiving! yay!!!!! i was truly thankful getting to spend time with family. and as my little nephew kept saying... BE HAPPY!

i ended an almost 4 year relationship that proved to be very unhealthy. he was 8 years younger than me. i've always tried to say that age doesn't matter. but sometimes it does. when the person you're with refuses to grow up, and wants to have the whole peter pan syndrome.. and refuses to accept responsibility in the relationship, let alone accept responsibility for their life.. than there can't be any balance or equality in the relationship. and it made it very difficult on me emotionally and physically. and i just couldn't do it anymore. i know what i want in life. i want a beautiful comfortable home. i want babies. i want a partner that i love that loves me back, that supports me and loves me and treats me as an equal. and when i say supports me, i don't mean financially. i mean supports my ideas, my dreams, pushes me to be a better person. someone that i can take home to my family and my family loves. someone i can be proud of. someone i can look up to (and not just cuz they're taller than me). someone that finds me smart and sweet and sexy and funny. someone that won't put up with my crap, but knows when to bend. someone who will truly be my partner. and someone who will be a wonderful husband and father. and i am lucky to have that person in my life once more. someone that i wanted to be with many many years ago, and fate has finally smiled upon us.

i love my jeff! and my family loves him too! my life couldn't be more perfect with him! yay!!!! and i can't wait til i get to call him my husband. and one day i'll be all preggers and have a fat belly with a beautiful baby growing inside me and hopefully will give my mommy a beautiful granddaughter, and my sister a beautiful niece. and if it's a boy.. than hopefully he'll be as dashingly handsome as tegon's boys!!! and i know my children will be smart and artistic and wonderful. and i simply can't wait to start my life! i'm finally "an adult".. and it freakin rules!!!! i love it!

and i finally got a new car this year! yay! i love my new car!!!

i took this year to clean up my life. to get rid of people and things that were holding me back, that were burdens. and it was very heartbreaking in a lot of ways. but i had to free myself of the clutter and of the "extra baggage." and i am a better person for it. sometimes you have to purge. sometimes you have to light a fire and burn away in order to make room for new, more beautiful things to grow and flourish.

and i can't wait to see what flourishes in my life.

and i welcome everyone to see what awaits.

and to those here that are family.. i have missed you all. and i am truly sorry for all the heartache i've caused over the years. i always have to do it my way. and i always will. be it just makes you that much more proud of me when i triumph over the crap right!

and mom.. my rendition of the village was just fine dammit! :P ehehehhehe

so much love to all! and merry christmas!!!! i can't wait to see tegon and the kids again! squee!!!!